Asterisk (original poster new member #86331) posted at 2:27 PM on Friday, July 18th, 2025
After D-day I felt, for many years, like I was a displaced refugee in my own home, a denuded stranger in a barren, strange land. Nothing was familiar, nothing was what I had thought it was. Everything was wilting. The soil I’d tended for 20 years was secretly salted, made sterile by a trusted hand.
The pain was so intense, so incredibly lonely, I was unable to see a path forward. My soul, my heart, my mind, and my faith was shriveling.
I don’t live in this state of disorientation anymore for my wife and I did find our footing and have something far superior to what existed pre D-day. However, I would be dishonest if I were to not admit, sometimes reminders take me back to old emotions I had when I realized that I’d been unceremoniously kicked out of the promise land for a sin I did not commit.
Tanner ( Guide #72235) posted at 4:44 PM on Friday, July 18th, 2025
Never in my 52 years did I ever experience anxiety or depression. I remember shortly after Dday this overwhelming feeling of being trapped in my body. I couldn’t escape, I remember wanting to run, but wanted to stay still, wanting sit down but also stand up. I had never felt anything like it. I just wanted run through woods in circles screaming. It is the worst thing that ever happened to me. Thankfully that feeling stopped very soon after and I haven’t experienced it since. Infidelity is abuse.
Dday Sept 7 2019 doing well in R BH M 33 years
Asterisk (original poster new member #86331) posted at 6:10 PM on Friday, July 18th, 2025
Never in my 52 years did I ever experience anxiety or depression. I remember shortly after Dday this overwhelming feeling of being trapped in my body. I couldn’t escape, I remember wanting to run, but wanted to stay still, wanting sit down but also stand up. I had never felt anything like it. I just wanted run through woods in circles screaming. It is the worst thing that ever happened to me. Thankfully that feeling stopped very soon after and I haven’t experienced it since.
My goodness Tanner,
I totally felt the same way. At the moment of disclosure, everything was shrouded in the fog of pain. I, like yourself, also have never struggled with depression but I was clearly disoriented and lost in an emotion I did not understand nor knew how to deal with it. Unlike you, I cannot say I "I stopped very soon after and I haven’t experienced it since." But what I do experience now is nothing like that period of my life.
